Wishy Washy

If I'm certain of one thing about myself it is this: that I can be quite wishy washy. If I were a politician I'm sure accusations of waffling would be heavy in the early days of my campaign.

Part of it is depression, I think. Perhaps a very large part of it. I feel like my resolve and determination can be quite high at moments (perhaps a bit unrealistic even), only to have it all fade away into despair. Quite often these two states occur at least once in the same day.

It is frustrating. I feel like I can't rely on myself to keep focus on long term goals and aspirations due to this. I can meet short term goals, but I often second guess and doubt myself when I have to endure through longer periods of time before reaching my goal. I lose my confidence and resolve.

Some might just say that I'm lazy, unmotivated, or a whiner. Admittedly, I'm all of these things to some degree some of the time. However, I feel like my brain chemistry is stacked against me or something. I know life is hard and at times it will get harder. But I feel like it's maybe just a bit harder than it should be.

Day #30- Freddie's Vocal Range

I can't attest to the accuracy of the labeled notes that he is hitting in these clips, but it is awesome enough to hear the different sounds he makes. I freaking love Freddie Mercury!!!

Freddie Day # 29- Freddie Screw Up? Never!

This is kind of funny. Freddie and Queen nerds will appreciate it. A compilation of screwed up lyrics, notes, etc. from Queen's live performances.

Freddie Day #28- This is What Happens When Freddie Sees a Penguin Poop

This is a video of part of the making of the "I'm Going Slightly Mad" video, which was made not that long before Freddie died.